May 16 2018
Hey y’all. Just wanted to vent a bit about what’s been going on in my life lately, and how it’s affected my artistic output. I’m sure you’ve noticed that I haven’t really posted much over the past month or so, and I thank you for not jumping ship in the meantime. I’m not sure how many of my followers are actually active, but I appreciate all of you nonetheless.
My health had been declining for the past few months, physically and mentally. I knew that taking this current job would mean I’d become more sedentary, but I didn’t expect it to take as much a toll as it has. I put on at least 30 pounds, which caused all sorts of other complications (especially for someone who was already overweight), and what I used to think was just feeling down about myself from time to time turned into full-on depression. I lost all motivation to do anything, including draw, cook, or socialize.
And if you know me, you know I love to draw and cook. Socializing? Well, at least sometimes.
It started to affect my work too, to the point where I found it difficult to even get out of bed anymore. I missed quite a few days of work, and they were not happy about it.
So I talked to my doctor, and now we’re working on it. Never thought I’d get to the point where I’d need medication, but you’ve gotta do whatever it takes to keep yourself healthy. The first couple of weeks were rough, what with my brain trying to adjust, but now, I’m honestly feeling much better. Haven’t felt useless, pathetic, ugly, anxious, or stressed for a week or so now. So things are looking up, I’m making progress!
I wanted to thank everyone for their patience, especially those that commissioned me. I haven’t forgotten about you! I promise you’ll get what you paid for, and soon. I’ve been trying to get back into the groove of drawing again, it was just hard to find the motivation when I had no mental energy and my brain was telling me nothing I did was worth the effort. Thank you for trusting and believing in me. <3
